So where I do start? I mailed THE BOX. The box is gone. I took THE TESTS, and enjoyed my summer with my kids. Suddenly NOVEMBER arrived. The month that all the national board forums predict we will find out whether we passed or failed. Or what is it some people say it's not that you failed it's, "You should be proud of yourself for just trying". Well, guess what that doesn't help me much. I am a teacher. A person who was born first in her family and has thrived under I am a driven person and I will do it and I will do it well. Well, this person has realized waiting causes her to become OBSESSIVE. I have checked my profile online on the off chance I missed the email that said when scores are posted; EVEN though I know they are not posted because everyone else is obsessing over them on the forums. The funny thing is my rational side understands that I have finished the work and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it now. The papers and tests are graded. So instead I wait like all the other thousands of applicants across America wait and wonder will I be with the 40% who pass or the 60% who "should be proud because we tried" group. So after writing all my thoughts out there is only one problem left--I am still waiting. The rational side has officially has it's booty kicked by the obsessive side. :-)
Ugh..test scores! We just received a CD of our ASK writing from last years' test - I have not looked at it yet, and will not for another month at least. I hate that our teaching lives are so bound up in these now.
ReplyDelete